Nenek Marak Bin Nyawa...

Awg. Marak Bin Nyawa
[1936 - 2009]

He was a great grandpa, always come up with lots of info, advice and stories from his younger years. Its very fortunate to be his grandchild [i inherited his height, hehe]

Anyways, i missed him so much. Updating this post about him...makes me cry and thinking that the fact i don't get to see him every weekends like i usually do...

Here's some pictures of him.....

Nini Laki & Nini Bini
These are my grandparents...

Nenek Marak with the Merangking Punans.

My grandpa is the one with the white towel over his shoulders.
[enshem kn? hehe]

Ewan massaging Grandpa's head...
He always find time to be with his grandchildren especially the little ones..

Grandpa at his orchard... sitting and waiting for durian or just chill~ hehe

This is his favourite durian = Lalit Otak Udang.... [my fav too]
Grandpa sometimes did eat just durian for breakfast.

We eat heavy lunch..
Grandpa just love to eat Ambuyat.
Lunch & Dinner = Ambuyat!
hehe

This was at Li Gong Empire where Grandpa's birthday celebrated.
It was a great night...

Grandpa was out from the Operation Table.
I remember the day when he was in the ICU at RIPAS, he was very active after a day from the OT. He always said that he was ok.

Grandpa having his hair cut. Just weeks before he left us.
I think he went to Giant the day after, to buy some shoes.
Two pairs of same kind.

Here are pictures of him with his youngest grandchild, Azyaneva or Lela Seri.
Grandpa always called her Lela Seri.
Now we continue calling her Lela Seri ... so that she will have the memory of Grandpa.

You are always in my heart....

Life Changing~

Life seem so hectic and sad~

I've just loss my popo (faternal) and my grandpa (maternal) this year....
Somehow i find ways to blame me for their deaths.
I know its not my fault but this is me...i tend to blame myself for everything~
There are lots of issues in my mind~ stress level is on
"VERY VERY VERY stress!!!!"

My Confession:

I am not a good friend to be...don't believe me? Ask my friends...
I am not a good daughter that you want me to be....don't believe me? Ask my parents...
I am not a good sister...that could depend on....don't believe me? Ask my siblings...
I am not a good cousin either....don't believe me? Ask my cousins...
I am not a good girlfriend to keep...don't believe me? Ask my boyfriend...
I am not a good colleague to work with...don't believe me? Ask my colleague...
I am not a good teacher....don't believe me? Ask my students...

Lastly, I am not a good person...don't believe me? Ask GOD...

Somehow what people would said about you will be totally true....

-She is annoying!
-She seldom spends time with her cousins ~
-She sometimes having fight with her parents about Converting!
-She needs her friends when she's alone...
-She always finds topic to get her boyfriend mad...
-She's not a good friend, she tend to flirt with your boyfriend instead...
-She's never independent...tend to search others for help...
-She always said things that not meant to be said or talk...
-She always make worse of every situation...
-She never have the courage to stand on her own.....
-She seldom take serious in her teaching...

This is whom i wish not to be~

I do apologise for what i did but SORRY seems to be the hardest word ..after all....~

I wish i could change my life slowly bit by bit....

If you would like to stay and watch, please do....
If not...please do walk away and never look back on a person name "SaLmiE."

I know who did walk away and they are happy now without me~

Life
is like a road...there are lots of junction...
Once you enter the wrong one, quickly turn back and move on...

However,
when you finally found the right road for you....
people seems to hate you for moving on it...

Why?
It is because you live on life for others not for you....
When they are happy...you will somehow find ways to be happy with it.

Do you agree?

i don't....

Life is short...
you will never know when you will die...
Maybe tomorrow or tonight...we don't know.

If we keep busy making perfection in life for others..
when will your turn to live be?

Live your Life~

That's what i want to do~

For u and me~

=)

27th October 2009

My Grandpa (mama's side) passed away with cancer (stage 4).

Seems like yesterday, we all families hang out, watching the all videos from the past.

It was fun and now....only memories can live up the your smile that showers us every moment.

I missed the smell of pipe and tobacco.

I missed my grandpa's voice that always called me Teacher or Cikgu.

I missed the lecture that he always give to his grandchildren...
"Raymond, jangan jadi mandur, tolong ni!"
"Sara, mana buku mu? Datang sini tahu main sja."

=)

I missed u Nenek~

I was hoping you would be there when i get married....

.....

='(